God can't be real

You watch as we suffer needlessly. You watch as we inflict so much hurt on each other. You watch as so much terrible heartache goes on in the world and we're told this is for our good. We're supposed to want to be like you. I don't want to be like you. I don't want to stand by as my children kill each other, as my children starve, as my children suffer diseases I could fix. On this earth if a parent withholds food from his child, he goes to jail, not a heavenly place like a 5 star resort. If a parent stands by and watches as others abuse his child, that parent goes to jail and is despised by others; that person is generally not someone we want as our leader let alone our God. Yeah, we're getting to the point where we are becoming like you. We elect presidents who are unfaithful and inflict pain on their spouses. When we do that, we're like you. We look for reasons why people should not be held accountable for the egregious acts they do to one another. Just like we have to make up reasons why you could stand by and watch. And yet I'm so brain-washed I can't not believe you exist and are doing these things for some great purpose. It's just sick. I'm so tired of it all.