Time, time time.

Next to you Elijah, Josh Rouse is my favorite musician.  I saw Josh Rouse perform this song in Indianapolis when I was there with you.  It's from his album "Happiness Waltz".  I had such hope that time with you would go on for years, that you would be healed, and that we would dance the happiness waltz.  Time pushes me further down the road without your presence.  Sometimes (most of the time) it just hurts.  I don't get this new world.  I can't count on anything in life anymore.  I read your lyrics for your new album and you loved life, you experienced it with your heart.  I feel like I'm letting you down because I am getting life but not appreciating it at all.  Don't get me wrong, I laugh, I work, I still watch sports, I play with grandchildren.  But nothing satisfies me to the core anymore. Hugs from your brothers keep me breathing.  It's the one place I feel you because they are sons just like you.  I am grateful for that.  How I love your brothers and love to be around them.  Never have I felt the significance of that connection as much as I do now.  But man, what a price I had to pay to learn that.  It seems you save me in so many ways.  Time......